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1. TONY download / lyrics
2. THE JOURNEY'S END download / lyrics
3. THE DARK BLUE HERON download / lyrics
4. GONE download / lyrics
5. HOLE download / lyrics
6. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH download / lyrics
7. SIX FEET MORE download / lyrics
8. MORE WILL BE REVEALED download / lyrics
9. GRAVY download / lyrics

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LYRICS
All songs words and music by Eric Endres
© 1997-2017 ASCAP. All rights reserved.


1. TONY

Tony, Tony, lonely lonely soul
You tried to go on, but you never had control
And now you're gone, broken and alone
But if I could, I'd call you on the phone and tell you...

Say "hello" to Jerry
Say "hello" to Kurt
Ask him if he found nirvana and if the bullet hurt

Tony, Tony, lonely soul
They tried to lift you up, but you kept on letting go
And now you're gone, a body in the ground
It's peace you wanted, man,
I hope it's peace you've found, Tony

Say "hello" to Jerry
Say "hello" to Kurt
Ask him if he found nirvana and if the bullet hurt

You lost it like a game
There is no one to blame
We lose a friend and in the end,
It's really just a shame

Sometimes I wonder where you are;
A bug in the Devil's jar?
Or scamming God to cop a nod?
But I know I'm never far

Say "hello" to Jerry
Say "hello" to Kurt
Ask him if he found nirvana and if the bullet hurt
Say "hello" to Jerry
Say "hello" to Kurt
Ask him if he found nirvana and if the bullet hurt

Tony, Tony, lonely lonely soul


2. THE JOURNEY'S END

Every day drivin' down that road for my connection
My only sense of direction -
Goin' full speed forward while my brakes are bad

And so I'll drive into walls
And I dive over Niagara Falls
Spending so much time ridin' with that so-called friend
Out by The Journey's End
La da da da da da da
La da da da da da da
La da da da da

Every day walkin' in that house for my connection
My only sense of direction -
Takin' two steps forward, and then a thousand back

It's hard to leave what you know
Easy gettin' where you don't wanna go
Hard to live your life chained up with that so-called friend
Out by The Journey's End
La da da da da da da
La da da da da da da
La da da da da


3. THE DARK BLUE HERON WITH THE MISSING EYE

The dark blue heron with the missing eye
landed on my arm one night
Such a friendly bird at first
but then it got much worse

The dark blue heron with the missing eye
Started comin' 'round every night
Scratchin' at my arms and my brain
Makin' me insane

All I wanna say - blue bird please fly away

The dark blue heron with the missing eye
always circlin' in the sky
So many times it shit on my head
and I wished it were dead

The dark blue heron with the missing eye
Man, that fucker just wouldn't die
Shot it once and it turned out then
Had to shoot it again and again

All I wanna say - blue bird please fly away

The dark blue heron with the missing eye
needs to get out of my life
No more damn bird flyin' around
No more chasin' it down

Just for today - blue bird please stay away


4. GONE

Sympathetic situation
Kind of lonely inspiration
I see my destination
Gone gone gone

She was time and she went right through me
Knew it all but she barely knew me
Such a fragile lover to me
Gone gone gone

Gone, like the leaves
Now I'm on my knees
Praying "come back, please"
Gone gone gone

Fleeting fragments from a runaway life
Cold comfort for an old man's night
Seeing tunnels at the end of the light
Gone gone gone

Gone, sad song
Or maybe I got it all wrong
Comes a time to move along
Gone gone gone


5. HOLE

I've gotta let go and let God
but letting go can be so hard
I wanted you for so long
I can't accept that now you're gone

It may be "easy come" but it's "hard go"

I've got the shape of you in my soul; wanna fill that hole
I take the emptiness wherever I go; gotta fill that hole

I'm obsessed with your possession
I'm possessed by this obsession
I can't get you out of my head
Don't wanna stop when the light is red

And I project you into everything I do

I've got the shape of you in my soul; wanna fill that hole
I take the emptiness wherever I go; gotta fill that hole

And all the things I've done to try to get you back
And what you did to me was wrong
but that doesn't change the fact that I don't feel right
And I'm the one who will not sleep tonight
for the want of you

I know that this, too, shall pass
And yet I still wanna make it last
It's all bitterness, it's all pain
but at least then you're in my veins

It may be "easy come" but it's "hard go"

I've got the shape of you in my soul; wanna fill that hole
I take the emptiness wherever I go; gotta fill that hole

And all the things I've done to try to get you back...


6. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH

I told my friend I have a headache in my soul
And the pain is gettin' harder to control
My friend, he said, "Your soul is in your head.
The pain can seep through any hole."

I told my girl I have a heartache in my hand
'Cause when I touch her I can feel another man
My girl, she said, "Well, he ain't in my bed."
But I just couldn't understand. It sounded like...

"Blah blah blah blah"
"Blah blah blah blah"
"Blah blah blah"
"Blah blah blah"

I told the doctor there's a virus in my mind
That keeps erasin' every answer I find
The doctor, he said, "I'd recommend some meds.
But not your mind-erasing kind."

I told the preacher there's a fracture in my knees
'Cause when I pray I just ain't gettin' what I need.
The preacher, he said, "You need what you get.
Sometimes we heal when we bleed.
Still sounds like...

"Blah blah blah blah"
"Blah blah blah blah"
"Blah blah blah"
"Blah blah blah"

Words of joy, words of grief
Words of hope, no relief
Words of truth, no belief

I told God I have a magnet in my shoes
Everywhere I go, they lead me right into the blues
God, he said, "Go barefoot, instead."
And I got nothin' left to lose

"Blah blah blah blah"
"Blah blah blah blah"
"Blah blah blah"
"Blah blah blah"


7. SIX FEET MORE

I'm tired of sleepin' through my life
Goin' blind from lookin' for the light
Sick and tired of bein' sick and tired
So low and can't get any higher

And I know as low as I can go, there's always six feet more
And I've said, as bad as it can get, "It hasn't got to me, yet"

I'm done with lyin' about the truth
I'm done with cryin' for my youth
I'm runnin' out of ways to run
Been holdin' on to what is gone

And I know as low as I can go, there's always six feet more
And I've said, as bad as it can get, "It hasn't got to me, yet"

I know, I set my life ablaze
And hid inside the haze
It's time to change my ways
And now, I know I need to be
A better kind of me
I'm ready to be free

I know...

Never wanna feel that way again
Never wanna bury another friend
Don't wanna give in, Don't wanna go where I've been
Don't wanna die until the end

And I know as low as I can go, there's always six feet more
And I've said, as bad as it can get, "It hasn't got to me, yet"

I know...


8. MORE WILL BE REVEALED

When I surrender, I've won
And when I'm powerless, I'm strong
The healing comes through the worst of pain
Hope was dyin', but now it lives again
The more I live, the more I'm healed
Every day, more will be revealed

I'm in the world but of the sky
And when I'm grounded well, I fly
Slowly pushing back the closing wall
Life was numb, but now I feel it all
The more I live, the more I feel
Every day, more will be revealed

It takes some direction to know the way
And it takes some faith to have some faith
The wildest dream's becoming reality
Hope was buried, but now it's flyin' free
The more I dream, the more it's real
Every day, more will be revealed
Every day, more will be revealed
Every day, more will be revealed


9. GRAVY

Twenty years later and I'm not sure
If I got a Band-Aid or I got a cure

Wounds have healed and the dope's long gone
But that little voice keeps droning on
Telling me I fall short in all kinds of ways
But I know as long as I'm countin' days

It's gravy, gravy; the broken-down cars and throwing-up kids
Gravy, gravy; the shoulda dones and shouldn'ta dids
As long as I'm still here
Every day, every month, every year is gravy

Made some foes out of what were friends
Made a big list of new amends

Built some castles out of beautiful sand
Felt all the grains washing through my hand
Lost my religion and lost my wife
But as long as I've had any kind of a life

It's gravy, gravy; the snow and the heat and the wind and rain
Gravy, gravy; the stress and the fear and the doubt and pain
As long as I'm still around
Every day that I'm above ground is gravy

Gravy on my mashed potatoes, etc.

I got to love and dream and badly dance
I got to sing about those elephants
Got to play some games and sometimes win
Got to know a Becca and an Evelyn
Got to make some right out of so much wrong
Got to do a cheesy little rap in this song
Got seven thousand three hundred days to be
Got to know what it's like to be free

It's all gravy...Gravy, gravy, mmm mmm mmm



   On December 29, 1996, singer-songwriter Eric Endres' friend, Tony, died of drug-related causes. Eric went to Tony's wake high on the drug that put Tony in the casket, and realizing he was on the same path and unable to stop. Speaking of the song he wrote about that ("Tony"), Endres says, "Hearing it today, it sounds like a lot of justification. Oh, too bad, man... You couldn't control it. I'll be okay, though. The last line of the bridge - "I know I'm never far" - was the only real moment of self-awareness. It was a turning point to really feel that."

   Thus begins Six Feet Over, a powerful album chronicling Endres' own heroin addiction, brushes with death, and subsequent recovery, and all of the obsession, avoidance, and rationalization along the way. Endres got clean on April 17, 1997, and this album includes several songs written shortly before and after that time, as well as a touching follow-up about life 20 years later ("Gravy").

   Six Feet Over
shows off a variety of memorable songs and musical styles, including the powerful alt-rock ballad "Tony," the droning progressive pulse of "Dark Blue Heron," the gorgeous and bluesy "Gone," the quirky and catchy "Hole" and "Blah Blah Blah Blah," the gospel rock flavored "More Will Be Revealed," and the folky Jack Johnson meets Kenny Loggins feel of "Gravy." Connecting the album throughout is Endres' unique and compelling voice and accomplished guitar work, as well as the stellar chops of guest musicians Seth Horan, Eric Cymerman, Ben Macy, and Brian Williams.


ABOUT ERIC ENDRES
   Eric Endres is a multiple award-winning singer-songwriter-performer. Best known for his body of work as a kids/family artist (by the name "Eric Herman"), Endres has also composed a lot of "grown up" music, including a full-length musical, orchestral works, and albums in the alt-rock, progressive rock, and singer-songwriter genres.

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